Sunday, September 27, 2009


this picture is the screen saver on my phone. Everytime I reach to call,
email or text someone, I see it. It's mezmorizing to me and I think if I
had the time I could stare at it for hours. For me, it captures the
joy and blessing my children are to me. For them, it captures the joy
of childhood.

A couple weeks ago I got busted staring at this picture. My Shelter co-
leader said let me see those kids. She stared at it for awhile and
commented at how my kiddos looked so happy. I responded by saying
"this is what childhood should be." children should grow up in a
loving home. They should laugh, be care free and joyful. The women
that would be joining us in the room later that evening didn't get to
experience that as children. Sure there may have been moments but
nothing like what it should be or should have been.

There are so many of us out there who never got to experience what
should be. So many children right now, next door, or half way across
the world who aren't experiencing what should be. Neglected, abused,
poverty stricken, starved, forced into slavery, fatherless, orphaned,
forgotten and abandoned, they are out there and one may even be you.

Again I am struck by the question, how am I to respond? I am grieved
that their are so many children out there that aren't experiencing
what should be. I am grieved for myself and the countless numbers of
other adults who also didn't get to experience what should be.

I am also awed over a great God. A God so great that He took all the
what should NOT have been's and conquered them while nailed to a tree.
A God who heals the loss experienced by those who missed out on what
should been's. I am awed and thankful for a God who is sovereign over
all and can restore all.

Monday, September 14, 2009


Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.
james 1:27 has been on the hearts and the minds of les and i a lot lately. what we once easily took for granted without a second thought is becoming harder and harder to ignore. we live in an incredible amount of excess while there are adults and children around the world starving. i can hardly eat a pregnant pint of ice cream without thinking about the kids who not only have never eaten ice cream in their lives but those that are dying or have died because of lack of food.

I used to easily dismiss the verses like Luke 6:24 "But woe to you who are rich, for you are receiving your comfort in full." In American standards the Brown Family is nowhere near the rich mark. Whew! But hold up, in context of the world we are filthy rich. We live in a palace in comparison to others around the world. My flesh wants to focus on the World Vision child we are sponsoring and move on to happier things. We're not rich remember? I just can't do it. I don't know if I'll ever be content continuing to live this lifestyle and get choked out by the weeds of comfort. People are dying while I eat that pint of ice cream. Dying. If I'm truly living out the life Christ has called me to, I shouldn't be able to turn my head and look the other way.

Where am I going with all of this? I don't know. What I do know is that God is flipping me completely upside down. I'm tired of THINKING of things to do I'm ready to shut-up and DO!

I originally meant to write about the video below and got off on a tangent. This is how flipped over backwards I feel. I can't get this video out of my mind. It doesn't help that Abbie wants to watch it over and over again. I can't keep Africa out of my mind. Les can't keep Africa out of his mind. Again I have no idea what all this means exactly. I do know that as I was asking God how am I supposed to respond to this today the answer was very clear. I look at the kids on this video and weep every time because they are so precious to God. So often I get wrapped up in getting my agenda done, or in my exhaustion or quite frankly my selfishness and I fail to treat MY own children as the precious blessing that they are. To love is to die and pregnancy is NOT an excuse not to do that on a daily basis.

I'm hoping all the things roaming around in my head will soon be able to be written in coherent words in a post but for now I apologize for being all over the place. For now I hope you will not only watch this video I hope you will be changed.