Monday, January 09, 2012

DAY 535: PS 80

My daughters are still up. One is to be expected and the other well, obviously she takes after her mother. Sweet Bella was still enough for me to vacuum and sweep today. I admit to being a kook and checking to see if she was breathing a couple times. It was so unusual for her to be fine for that long without being held. Feels good to be able to get something I can tangibly see accomplished.

I struggled off and on today and had to refrain from eating one of my children. He is so blatantly disobedient and his disobedience leads to something destroyed or a gianormous mess. I'd like to think he was just acting out but I think it just might be him. His personality is going to yield so many good things if he chooses to walk with the Lord. In the meantime, it's sanctifying the daylights out of me and exposes my ugly sinfulness. So thankful my Father is ever so patient and slow to anger unlike me. Trying to remember to remain. It works well when I remember but I need to be reminded 57 times a day. Maybe I'll get it tattooed somewhere.

PS 80:
There is so beautiful imagery in this Psalm. I have a certain friend who would dig this very much. Asaph compares Israel to a vine and at one point says that the vine has been cut off and burned. Yet once again another reminder to remain.

If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. (John 15:6 NIV84)

Sometimes I could kiss God's very face. It's the small ways that He shows that He is ever present and He is not joking when trying to drill in a message. He is awesome and I'm so thankful He chose a selfish sinner like myself to love and pursue. His ways are kind and gentle to those who love Him.

This verse is throughout the passage.

Restore us, O God;
make your face shine upon us,
that we may be saved. (Psalm 80:3 NIV84)

Isn't this what we want as believers, to be restored and have God's very face shine upon us? I know this is true of me. Restore me God. I am a broken sinful mess and without you I am lost and hopeless.


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