Tonight got to celebrate a dear friend. She has been provision in my life in so many ways and blessed by her friendship. It was sweet to hear her recount the way God orchestrated a move for her and her family. Love how God not only provides our needs but also provides the sweetest icing on the cake in so many ways. In all of that I continually hear the sweetest whisper of "do not fear". This verse comes to mind:
There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. (1 John 4:18 ESV)
I wouldn't classify myself as a worrier or anxious but I know that I do have some of that in me. I think my biggest fear is that I'm going to screw this whole thing up. I'm going to miss something important or veer to the left or the right and mess it all up. I want big bold answers and huge road signs to point me in the right direction. I don't trust myself not to mess up or for my heart to not be deceitful. Yet this is where the walking in faith piece comes in. If I knew all the answers I would take off ahead of God. What He desires is for me to walk with Him. The whole MS thing was totally like that and I think it was a small picture of how God desires me to walk with Him by faith daily in big and small matters. I don't need to know what bend in the road lies ahead I just need to keep putting one foot in front of the other WITH Him. Oh how He loves me. God help me to walk with you and not stop to look at the distracting shiny things behind you or try to speed up and race ahead. Keep me tethered to you. Prone to wander Lord a feel it. Write on my heart what you want me to focus on this year. I can get lost and wrapped up in my plans but help me to wait and listen to you speak to my heart.
Read Joel 1. Oh how awful those locusts must have been.