Friday, December 09, 2016

We All Live In A Yellow Submarine

1. I kinda feel like the little ole woman who lived in a shoe. I remember hitting the Q4 wall last year around this time too. Generally I'm pretty content about our square footage. If I could only change one thing it would be backyard space first and foremost. Then I'd want a space for kids and schooling that's outside of the main living area but overall I'm thankful and can't complain. But since we don't have extra living space to spare everything spills into our already limited space and I kinda feel like I'm in a shoe box. A chaotic, dirty, and disorganized shoebox.

2. It has been attention deficit central around here too. Today I felt too tired, too scattered, too short tempered, too ill equipped, too emotional, too everything not enough to do this job. And as the cherry on top, the three year Tornado poured pee on her brother to cap off the day. I need to escape to my pregnant troll cave. Really what I need to do is work on a schedule to help our days flow better. I never had time to do it before school started and it's kicking my buns now. Thankfully everything will be wrapping up at about the same time just in time for a new year. Deep breath!

3. Okay need to switch to some gratitude because I want to blow up my house, crawl into a hole, and feel so defeated about our scattered messy lives. How do I teach these little minions executive function when I'm the last person who should be teaching anybody about that anyway!?!?!? I can't imagine not having one of these little people but they are going to need to go to therapy simply over the amount of frozen pizza they have had to eat over the years. I have to get up tomorrow and figure out what to feed them again and I need to go to the grocery store but I don't have the energy to go much less take this fun bunch with me and even ordering it online is overwhelming and it's a first world freaking problem! First world problem!!!! Yet even that can't kick me into gear to be able to meal plan or figure out all that we need to get a grocery list together and that is depressing.

- Lord thank you for the Ishtar advent Devo. Just thinking about today's reading has me choked up again. Having to manage feeding my family and going to one of many many choices of stores is a drop in the bucket. So many families are going to bed starving tonight. So very very blessed.

- Thank you for my seven jewels. Give me energy, patience, endurance, and wisdom to raise each of them. There is no one size fits all approach to raising these kids. They are each so different with their different strengths and challenges.

-thank you Lord for quite and time to think and problem solve our beautiful mess. It would be so much easier to send these knuckleheads to freaking school. But in the quite I realize things just need to be revamped a bit. I forget at times why I choose to teach my kids. It's not to be sane that's for sure. Each one of them is indeed a treasure, a precious jewel, and each of them have their own strengths and weaknesses. I want to capitalize on that for their sake. I want to be a good steward of the amazing minds the Lord has given them. It's challenging because even the one kid who seemed the easiest is now showing his own signs of attention issues. As an added bonus they all have their own different version. But God is good and He provides what we need. Sometimes all we need is some quiet.

Piper Devo. Ah the glory of God. The coming together of nations inspired to a census and the heavens aligning in such a perfect way to fulfill prophesy, to proclaim the coming of Christ. Awe struck wonder. He is mighty in power and His plans will always come to fruition. Oh praise Him! Oh let us come to worship. Oh how Advent fills my heart with wonder. Gives me reason to pause and continue to long expectantly when one day I too will meet Jesus face to face.


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