Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Well Slap Me Silly And Call Me Bojangles

1. Broken wrist boy is pinned and resplinted. He had a rough go coming out of anesthesia and the surgery center ran the place like a fast food joint which made Papa Bear and a Momma Bear ANGRY! But he has minimal pain and is doing well now. In a week they will check to make sure everything is in place correctly and if so he'll get a cast for three weeks and another check in X-ray. Thankful for modern medicine and other than the surgery center great medical care.

2. Thankful for Dr. C! Biggest boy has a peritonsillar abscess. It can be a complication of strep BUT the dr thinks strep is already gone. This makes me think he never had strep and we never had a relapse of strep but rather something else. Les and I both have throat funk going on that we have been throwing all the natural antibiotic stuff at to no avail. I've had strep and this throats funk surely is not it. I'm guessing the mystery plague is viral and I bet Luke picked it up when he was at the clinic for strep. That explains why Paul "relapsed" before he ever finished his antibiotics for strep. I'm hoping the virus isn't mono. My hubs has already had it but it seems as if there are a couple different strains maybe? I don't know. It's a mystery and I may never have a definite answer. Regardless we are all still fighting some crazy New Baby Plague.

3. My hubs was my hero today. He often is my hero but doesn't get much recognition. Thankful for him.

4. So what can I learn about all this crazy. I think once again reminded to not react out of fear and to respond with the best information I have with wisdom. I ended up on an Australia sight looking for what else could cause the abscess that Paul has just in case one of my others with huge red tonsils but who are not acting overly sick gets one as well. It's funny on the medical sites in the US they attribute the decline of rheumatoid fever due to antibiotics but in Australia they attribute it to the strain of strep changing. That's interesting. I don't feel a need to rush off my other two who look like they have tonsillitis to the dr. Even if it's caused by bacteria antibiotics only shaves off about 36 hrs off of the illness. That's crazy to me!! But if they crash like Paul did last night then I will gladly take them to the dr and pump them full of pills and a heavy dose of probiotics. All in all I learned I can't completely screw it up. God is Sovereign and I can trust Him to lead and guide me as we navigate these treacherous parental waters.

5. Reminded again how much the Lord provides for us. It's been a crazy couple of weeks but the Lord's hand has been all over it. It's hard to trust in the midst of the chaos but His right hand is ever upon us. His love for us is crazy. Heart is so full of gratitude. I know tomorrow will kick my butt but He's in it with me.

6. Rev 18. Saw that DTS is offering a free online course on Revelations. Hmm..


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Tuesday, May 30, 2017

To Pin Or Not To Pin? That Is The Question.

1. So broken wrist boy did not come home with a sparkly cast. The orthopedist could have set the bone in office but it would have been traumatic for our boy. Protocol for this kind of break is to put a kiddo out to make sure it gets set correctly. This growth plate thing needs to be set right. So we get to decide if we want the doc to put a pin in the break to secure it. Right now if we don't pin it, he'll go home in a splint and get a cast in a week. If the bone shifts in that weeks time then it would be back to the surgery center to be put under again to get a pin. Thinking about all the dang shenanigans that goes on in this house and how a brother already punched the broken arm I think a pin from the get go makes wonderful sense.

2. Think biggest boy has tonsillitis. We fought the funk valiantly but after a day being fever free and better fever came back and his neck started hurting. After consulting with our fabulous new doc he said no need to rush off to urgent care could wait till tomorrow. It would have been easier to throw antibiotics at it but had to at least try to kick it in order to get off the dang antibiotic strep rodeo. It's a whip and it's killing their guts. Everything I've read just confirms that antibiotics sets you up for another round of strep. No good! Thankful for modern medicine when the bugs are stubborn like me.

3. I've been a turd kid towards God. My sense of entitlement for ease is ridiculous. It's hard and it's okay that it's hard. He's got me, He really does and He's got our kids too. So many things to be thankful for. A broken wrist instead of a concussion. No poison ivy or illness on broken wrist boy. Good medical care. Healthy kids. Work for my hubs. Health care sharing. So many things to give thanks for. Much better when I remember the Lord's mighty hand and take cover under His wings. What a blessing gratitude is for the heart. Thankful for Jesus.

4. Gonna try the Book of Common Prayer tonight.


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Monday, May 29, 2017

Same Song Same Verse

Still dealing with poison ivy and strep. Broken wrist boy gets his cast tomorrow morning. He's excited. He is hopeful a cast won't go up to his elbow and for it to be waterproof. We'll see.

Rev 17 - the prostitute and the beast. Fun stuff.


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Sunday, May 28, 2017

Stupid Strep!

1. I feel a little psycho these days. One part of me is freaked out that my oldest boy is still fighting strep hard. The other part of me is fine and is confident to stay the course. I have a house full of people fighting some kind of funk that sure does sound like strep but not typical symptoms. Oy! This too shall pass. This better give us all immunity to strep for at least ten years.

2. Two silly and giggling girls. Oh the wonders of this age.

3. Poor hubs is starting to get the funk. I feel like I'm fighting something but I'm probably just still in the thick of fourth trimester. Taking raw garlic just in case. I smell lovely.

4. Psalm 40
"I waited patiently for the Lord; he inclined to me and heard my cry."
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭40:1‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Need to be better at waiting patiently. Often I wait impatiently. I lack the needed reverence that I should have for the King of Kings. I remember when Jesus is my homeboy was popular. I get the sentiment here but I also think I can treat God flippantly. Fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge. Jesus isn't my homeboy He's my King and savior.


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Saturday, May 27, 2017

Two Out of Three Ain't Bad

1. Throwing in the towel with one of our streppies. He seemed to be getting better but then started really tanking last night. There's another remedy that might work better for him but can't buy it in a local store. Praying he wakes up feeling better in the morning but he's looking really rough tonight.

2. Dumb headache eating my brain.

3. Frog Boy let my hubs hold him for almost an hour today. It was glorious. It was nurse-a-thon this afternoon but thankful to be able to throw in a load of laundry, load a dishwasher and get a shower.

4. Woke up this morning overwhelmed at the thought of facing the day. The exhaustion is so thick and heavy in the morning. Somebody must have been praying for me because as Brownies piled into my bed gratitude overwhelmed my heart. Perspective can be hard when exhausted. Thankful Jesus blessed me with eyes to see past the exhaustion this morning.

5. Thankful for hearing the joyful sounds of two precious girls belting out Hamilton this evening. Thankful for the precious friends the Lord has blessed my girl and me with.

6. Frustrated by a kiddo whose code is especially hard to crack. Hard to know when grace becomes enabling and when certain consequences become agents to control that lack empathy and grace. I think overall a more ridged schedule is needed to whip this household into shape. I will admit that makes me feel stifled and suffocated a bit but I think in the long run will actually lead to more freedom. The hard thing for me will be getting my buns up earlier. That probably doesn't mean getting up much earlier than my kids to have an hour long bible study etc. That's just not my jam but I can get up earlier and get us all up and at em and exercised to have our hearts pumping. I don't "got this" but I trust the Lord to lead and equip. He is so faithful.

7. Sweet baby on my chest. So thankful for this precious boy.

8. Thankful for my amazing hubs who deep cleaned the kitchen and organized one of our cabinets. So this is love!

9. Migraine. Boo!

10. Revelations and bed. Bummed about no church tomorrow. Hoping this ragamuffin crew can rest up.


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Friday, May 26, 2017


1. Full week of school. At least I have gotten one thing done this week. It's an important thing so huzzah!

2. Thankful for a doctor who stayed open late on a Friday to help a brave Brown Boy who broke his wrist.

3. Looks like another Brown has fallen and I don't mean the one who fell off the fence. Poor Boo has been off all day and is running a fever. No complaints of a sore throat yet though which is really bizarro.

4. The poison ivy boys are still going strong. The worst ivy bro is still battling his strep and when his remedies and Meds wear off he's pretty miserable.

5. It's been a long week folks. Thankful for Jesus.

6. "And they sing the song of Moses, the servant of God, and the song of the Lamb, saying, "Great and amazing are your deeds, O Lord God the Almighty! Just and true are your ways, O King of the nations! Who will not fear, O Lord, and glorify your name? For you alone are holy. All nations will come and worship you, for your righteous acts have been revealed.""
‭‭Revelation‬ ‭15:3-4‬ ‭ESV‬‬


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Thursday, May 25, 2017

I Could Stare At His Thighs All Day

1. I could stare at Frog Boy's thighs all day long. When you have contributed to growing a pair of tiny sticks into some actual baby thighs it's a beautiful sight to behold. I love this pumpkin boy.

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Another One Bites The Dust

1. A content for the moment baby is sleeping on my chest. A sleeping baby on the chest is one of the best things ever.

2. Bit woke up with a sore throat and Paul went down hard today. We'll see if homeopathy can work like a charm for three out of three. Poor Paul was already miserable with poison ivy. It's gonna be a rough couple of days for that sweet boy.

3. It's a hard season but a good one. My thrashed and dirty house is really bumming me out. There's so much chaos right now that controlling my environment would be lovely. But alas my sweet Frog Boy won't have it and the sibs so excited to hold a baby don't want to hold him anymore bc he's guaranteed to cry. Poor buddy's guts are just so whack.

4. Rev 13. Digging commentary. It's like a history lesson.

5. Need to get some vitamin D tomorrow even if it's just a walk around the block.

6. Thankful for Jesus.


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Monday, May 22, 2017

This Too Shall Pass

1. Stupid strep again. I'm giving antibiotics the middle finger this time. Read enough about antibiotics actually being the cause of the strep merry go round and it not being all the effective. I'm thankful for antibiotics when needed but thankful to kick things like ear infections and hopefully strep without them. My throats is feeling scratchy tonight too which is just awesome.

2. I'm a frustrated grumpy troll. Easier to soak up the newborn stage when there is an extra adult in the mix. Frog Boy doesn't much want to share me and I can't get anything done. My toddler tornadoes are great at destroying just about everything in their path.

3. I've wanted bedtime to happen since this morning and I hate that. My kiddos weren't crazy I just couldn't do the things I wanted to do with them or the things I needed to do. One sweet girl wanted me to draw with her but I just couldn't get to it today with a sick kid and Frog Boy and all the other things that demanded attention.

4. AH HAH!! I know why I'm so frazzled today!! Stupid Gretchen. Right now it feels crazy that she can return when I'm nursing 24/7. BAH!!

5. I need to write out a list of all the things I'm thankful for and there's a lot but I'm too grumpy. Lame.


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Sunday, May 21, 2017

Happiness Is A Beautiful Day In The Country

Thankful for fun times out at a friends new lovely property with a small army of children. My heart is full and a bit sad to be back in the city. Really ready to do some communal living on a huge plot of land.

Caught Frog Boy sucking his thumb. That's about the cutest thing ever. I love this precious baby.

Great day. Thankful for early morning thunder showers, heavenly music sung over me at church, for church and for the sweetness of seeing friends there, taco bueno $10 whole lotta boxes, friends with land who aren't afraid to host, watching a small army of kids play and enjoy God's creation, amazing BBQ, a beautiful sunset, and being in bed.


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Saturday, May 20, 2017

The Red Heifer

I don't really know anything about the Red heifer but I always think about it and maybe giggle a bit when I think about Revelations. Let's just say that this time it's more of a nervous tick rather than a real giggle. Who knows when the end will come but there are some crazy things going on these days. I'm sure people have been saying that for decades though.

I don't know but Revelations is a different read to me this time. If we are smack dab in the middle of the beginning of the real s storm the thought of my kids dealing with that possibly with out their awesome parents makes me sick. They are growing up in some really crazy times. End of the world or not, the world view is really whack these days. It's reeks of death and destruction. Really who gives a rip about whether or not to do soccer or agonize over this curriculum or that. That is near sightedness for sure. My kids are going to encounter crazy crap that I wouldn't have even begun to be able to imagine. I need to stop being so insanely distracted over things that are so temporal and prepare them for the long game. Long game most important all the rest is just fluff on the sides. And if we are indeed created to glorify Christ shouldn't the extracurricular be about that too rather than just having kids who can sing, or act or shoot a basketball? Long game. I need to focus on the long game. Bigs is 11. Time is fleeting. I gotta get out of this crazy city. I gotta get a flip phone.

This always gets me:

"When the Lamb opened the seventh seal, there was silence in heaven for about half an hour."
‭‭Revelation‬ ‭8:1‬ ‭ESV‬‬


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Friday, May 19, 2017

Rain Already!!!

1. Head is killing me. This crazy kinda gonna might just rain weather kills me. Just rain already! And fire and brimstone just on top of our big van please. 

2. Brain foggity fog is eating my brain.

3. Love the thought of God wiping away every tear. 

"For the Lamb in the midst of the throne will be their shepherd, and he will guide them to springs of living water, and God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.""
‭‭Revelation‬ ‭7:17‬ ‭ESV‬‬


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Thursday, May 18, 2017

Covered and Smothered

I nursed all day long. Frog Boy up to seven pounds though. Whoop! I could kick reflux in the teeth.

Can't fully shake Mudgey's ear infection. It goes away but then comes back. I could cuss!! Honestly he'd probably be a fine candidate for tubes.

Sweet baby finally sleeping in my arms. I'm sure not for long but for now I'm enjoying it.

Rev 6. So hard to read. Oh Jesus I want to beg you to come quickly and yet I ask that you soften the hardened hearts of men. Give sight to the blind.


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Wednesday, May 17, 2017

It's Time

1. Mil leaves tomorrow and I'm itching to get into a groove as our new normal. I need to be realistic about our new normal as sweet Frog Boy nurses 24/7. He needs to but it's rather exhausting.

2. Itching to purge everything. We have way too much muchness. Took a pass at purging more clothes that are hanging up in my closet. Hanging onto stuff that I might fit back into someday is ridiculous. It's as if I'm waiting to catch a leprechaun.

3. Okay I don't get the trend to dye your hair as if it's gray or steely grayish. Then when these youngsters do get gray they dye it to hide the gray. I'm so not cool.

4. Rev 6. Wowzers. Heaven seems pretty mind blowing.


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Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Ah Buggar!

Been sitting here trying to write a Birthday letter to my birthday boy and all of it ends up in parental grief and shame. I've blown it big with this kid and I know in my crappy humanity I will continue to. I pray the Lord will repay my boy for the years the locusts have eaten. Desperately clinging to the fact that God's grace is sufficient in my weaknesses. Jesus help me with this parenting gig because tonight it feels like I completely stink at it. God if I have snuffed out any of my precious boy's light please make it shine bright again.

How can he possibly be nine?


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Monday, May 15, 2017

Just A Spoon Full of Gratitude

1. Thankful for... sweet friends who come and see my kids in plays, a spice girl who danced with a penguin, ooey gooey toddlers, itty bitty babies and oxytocin and so much more.

2. One more play down in the books. It's lovely and now I'm ready to sleep for months.

3. No sleep yet need to get my butt up once Frog Boy is asleep to do Birthday Surprises. I kinda wanna cry but excited about celebrating my boy's bday. Wish he was young enough so we could fudge which day it was.

4. Contemplating what it means to be salt and light in our crazy world. The Bible is indeed our manual in life but I know my heart is wicked and I can draw whatever meaning I want to justify what I want to do in life.

5. "It is good to give thanks to the Lord, to sing praises to your name, O Most High;"
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭92:1‬ ‭ESV‬‬


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Sunday, May 14, 2017

Mother's Day Smothers Day

1. I'm crazy exhausted and a pooper on Mother's Day. It feels like a ridiculous Hallmark holiday. I hated standing up in church today. I'm normally not this trollish on Mother's Day. I know exhaustion is warping my thinking.

2. Very melancholy today. Heavy conversations and thoughts rolling around in my head. I wanna punch Satan in the freaking face. Most thoughts revolving around "how then shall we live?"

3. A dressing room incident last night has me crazy triggered. Wanna crawl out of my skin triggered. There is not a single place that is safe. Fear is not the proper response but vigilance is and most importantly trust and hope in Christ. Hoping for innocent confusion. The alternative makes me want to wretch and torments my heart.

4. Lots and lots of things grieving my heart tonight. It's good. The sin of this world and dear ones who are lost as could be should grieve my heart.

5. Needing time for much silence to put handles on my lots of thoughts.

6. Psalm 91 is deep deep refreshment for my soul tonight.

"For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways."
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭91:11‬ ‭ESV‬‬


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Saturday, May 13, 2017

The Beauty of Silence

"the twenty-four elders fall down before him who is seated on the throne and worship him who lives forever and ever. They cast their crowns before the throne, saying, "Worthy are you, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they existed and were created.""
‭‭Revelation‬ ‭4:10-11‬ ‭ESV‬‬


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Friday, May 12, 2017


1. Another night of six littles actors. My kids are pretty darn amazing.

2. Too tired to fully make sense out of Revelations 3.


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Thursday, May 11, 2017

One Down Three To Go

1. One play down three to go. I snuck some peeks in. Oh my blue fairies were adorable!

2. Bible, dark beer and bed.



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Wednesday, May 10, 2017

I Did That!

1. Since Frog Boy has been my skinniest baby I am truly marveled at his little thighs finally putting on some meat. He's still little but I'm truly amazed that my body grew him, birthed him and now is putting the padding on him. Fearfully and wonderfully made!

2. Feeling much better today but keeping up with the garlic parade and added in a homeopaths cure as well. Have yet to fully clear the clogged plumbing but hopefully soon.

3. Strep still going on in the casa and Mudgey's ear infection seems to be creeping back in. It's a fun time to be a Brown.

4. This wrecks me in many ways:

"Behold, he is coming with the clouds, and every eye will see him, even those who pierced him, and all tribes of the earth will wail on account of him. Even so. Amen."
‭‭Revelation‬ ‭1:7‬ ‭ESV‬‬

5. With all the infection fun going on in this house I realize I never dealt with a lyric in a song that I'm not all that comfortable with. Show starts tomorrow. Ugh.


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Tuesday, May 09, 2017

Garlic & Potatoes

1. Clogged duct that is trying or is turning into mastitis. Aches, pains and fever. Thankful my hubs got done with work early and could go get some potatoes are garlic so I can hopefully kick this without Meds. Fever gone for now so that's a great sign.

2. Kids watched tons of tv while I holed up with Frog Boy and napped with Mudgey. Hoping nobody else gets strep and that my own infection is much better tomorrow.

3. The day of the Lord. Come quickly Lord Jesus.


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Monday, May 08, 2017

Pain In The Head

1. Obnoxious headache all day. Obnoxious headache with a five hour play practice makes for an exhausted Momma.

2. Started the breakfast and lunch portion of the Reset Diet. Hopefully I'll get all three meals in once play crazy is over. For now celebrating breakfast which has been my goal for the month. Now to get everyone else up to speed.

3. Strep throat in the house. Throat starting to feel scratchy. I'm sure it's just psychosomatic.

4. Malachi 3


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Sunday, May 07, 2017

Going Down

1. Slowly inching my way into the Adrenal Reset Diet starting tomorrow. Seems simple enough. Smoothie, salad, stir fry. Will get boring but boring better than hard. I can mix it up once I feel like I can. I do appreciate the book. Totally written for someone who is feeling exhausted and easily overwhelmed. Adrenal fatigue you are going down!

2. Realizing my mistake of not reading the script of the play my kiddos are in. Ugh! I love RPL but there's always going to be issues when world views do not align. 

3. Malachi 2 - unfaithfulness of priests.

This verse seems so fitting tonight.

"You have wearied the Lord with your words. But you say, "How have we wearied him?" By saying, "Everyone who does evil is good in the sight of the Lord, and he delights in them." Or by asking, "Where is the God of justice?""
‭‭Malachi‬ ‭2:17‬ ‭ESV‬‬


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Saturday, May 06, 2017

Friday, May 05, 2017


1. Don't remember much about today. Five plus hours at RPL today. Sweet hubs brought us food and helped out. I love that man. Bummed about missing an opportunity to offer a ride but had a good crash and knew I didn't need to be driving around. When the brain fog sets in I'm quite the idiot driver.

2. Hubs met with the pastor of the church we are attending right now. Again overcome by how we have been welcomed to just be with no pressure to be members. Second time a church has given us the freedom to allow their body to be a place of rest and a safe place. Gets me choked up.

I remember thinking how bold it was to basically call out all the "freeloaders" who weren't getting on board and becoming a member. Yes! Battleship not cruise ship! That would be great if church was supposed to be a battle ship. Went to lunch a couple Sundays ago that was quite the divine appointment and it was said that the church should be a hospital not a battleship. Aren't we all just a bunch of people wounded by the fall?

3. Mudgey stopped thrashing about finally and I'm fading.


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Thursday, May 04, 2017


1. Evil headache and lack of sleep has me in a foul mood tonight. Poor Frog Boy has struggled most of the day today. He didn't get the memo that I was ready to crawl into bed a long time ago.

2. Thankful for a cherished friend who stopped by with food, friendship and hands to hold a baby so I could load the dishwasher.

3. If a feast hadn't been dropped off today I would have managed to eat a granola bar and leftover fries. Gotta figure out easy protein I can just easily grab at least for breakfast.

4. My goodness I'm exhausted.

"And I will put this third into the fire, and refine them as one refines silver, and test them as gold is tested. They will call upon my name, and I will answer them. I will say, 'They are my people'; and they will say, 'The Lord is my God.'""
‭‭Zechariah‬ ‭13:9‬ ‭ESV‬‬


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Wednesday, May 03, 2017


1. I feel like Dr. House tonight. I took a lovely dive into adrenal fatigue land and wound up finding a connection on the MTHFR gene mutation. My lip tied babies were a much needed clue. I looked up symptoms on this mutation in kids and the list is not far off from my bunch. I feel like a dang genius and I have hope. Hope that we can all get well and our lovely brains and guts can get healed. One step at a time though.

2. My days feel like a foggy haze right now. When I'm sitting on my booty at home it's not bad, it just is. When I need to pull myself together and get my brain to work I feel like I'm walking in thick sticky mud. But even though I'm experiencing the fun of some sort of crash I'm so darn excited about my discoveries that I can do a jig jiggity jig! Can I say that I think MTHFR gene mutation was given quite the appropriate name.

3. Had a moment of clarity that I will probably forget tomorrow. I have a choice over whether or not I get angry at stupid crap my kids do or don't do. Wish I could hold onto that clarity.

4. I want to throw my stupid phone into the deepest depths of the ocean. One day my turkeys are eventually going to have their own and I am leaving a horrible example for them. Zombie checked out parents stinks. So easy to want to escape when I feel like crap, I'm exhausted and i feel overwhelmed. I need to figure this thing out though because I know my brain is being rewired and everything feels so darn urgent which is total hog wash.

5. Hog wash. I really like the sound of that. Oh hog wash!

6. Zechariah 12: wish my brain worked more. Think this is supposed to be in the future though. The vision in my head of all the nations coming against Jerusalem looks very similar to the battle in Lord of the Rings.


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Tuesday, May 02, 2017

Come On Frog Boy!

1. Sweet midwife came today bearing lots of fun for my kiddos. She even let my bigs draw blood on her veins. I could not watch! One day my girl is going to look back on all this and realize just how much she was invested in and loved. 

2. I had hoped my sweet Frog Boy was close to seven pounds but he's only six pounds and some change. I want my boy to be gaining a half pound a week not a quarter of a pound. My midwife is not concerned but I'm so eager to see this boy fat and pudgey like Mudge. I know Bit took a while to get to ten pounds and it was quite the victory when she hit that mark. I need to relax about the weight thing. Never been concerned about it before. Thank you adrenal fatigue for helping to make me crazy. 

3. I'm not messing around with this adrenal fatigue crap this time. I know what it is and since it's not messing around I'm not either. Supplements and book on how to reset my adrenals by diet is on the way. 

4. I'm not big on loading up on lots of extracurricular activities but have been very tempted for this summer. I can be crazy when I have energy to be crazy. This summer our extracurricular activity can be the pool. 

5. Thankful for a friend continuing her education who took the time to share what she is learning about curriculum for dyslexia. I had almost ruled that option out but feel more optimistic. Also interesting how another source of income could possibly pay for Take Flight. Not sure where we will end up but God does and He loves my boy and our family like crazy. 

6. Still battling an obnoxious ear infection. I'm really hoping this is not the new normal for infections for this kid. The good news is that fever has broken so definitely think we are headed in the right direction. This poor pumpkin is cutting molars too so that's not helping anything. 

7. Zechariah 11. There's so much going on here but I need to read some commentary to keep it all straight or rather to make sure I'm straight. Thankful for God's mercy and love.

"So I became the shepherd of the flock doomed to be slaughtered by the sheep traders. And I took two staffs, one I named Favor, the other I named Union. And I tended the sheep."
‭‭Zechariah‬ ‭11:7‬ ‭ESV‬‬


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Monday, May 01, 2017


1. Fourth trimester is in full effect. I'm feeling the fun of adrenal fatigue. Poop! Time to put my baby pants on and lean in hard to the selfcare. I'm so awesome at that. Jesus. He can help.

2. Mudgey is rocking an awesome ear infection and between him and Callen the last couple of nights have been an adventure.

3. My sweet little stick boy is little by little putting some meat on his little stick limbs. So thankful.

4. Lots of thoughts on lots of things that still I can't exactly write into words. As silly as it may sound, the show Call The Midwife has been an interesting thing to ponder. There definitely is some agenda interspersed in it but overall it's a great show. I am captivated by the way the Anglican nuns love. They simply are the hands and feet of Christ without trying to change anyone. There is no judgement but rather mercy and compassion. I can't explain it but it's been really good for my heart.

5. Zechariah 10:
Restoration. Rain.

"I will make them strong in the Lord, and they shall walk in his name," declares the Lord."
‭‭Zechariah‬ ‭10:12‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Praying this tonight.


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1. Read earlier and just forgot to try to capture any thoughts. It feels rather exhausting to think these days or ever.

2. Gonna be a long night. I have a sweet baby boy with a fever. Pretty sure it's an ear infection caused by allergies or at least that's what I hope.

3. Sermon on the Emmaus Road. I don't like the idea of a suffering savior.

All is quite finally and can't keep my eyes open.


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